The flying albatross

well I think this is going to be a last post for awhile.. No one seems to read this so I might let it close up.. I am in a really really down state of mind these days.. I dont know when I am going to come out of it but I hope soon.. Nothing seems to be going right and I feel as if I am in the same place as I was in August. Trying to figure out where I am in life.. But back in August I kinda new.. Now I am not so sure..
School this semester just sucked big time.
CMS is stressful but enjoyable at most times.
Weston has completly stopped. So Now I am stuck with big decisions to make. I might keep you all posted.. But we shall see. Until then take care to all my friends.

Saturdays cms class was really a good class. We concentraited on energy work the whole class.. I knew that I would be tested hard as this was not my first look on the subject. Sure enough I was tested hard.. But I passed with flying colours.
I also have never focused so well as I did on Saturday.. I had no problem grounding and focusing at all it was great.. Finally I think I got the hang of it.

On Monday I am going to register at Concordia Univerisity for some classes. I have decided to take the medevial class in Judaica studies and the Ancient Judaism class as well.
It should be fun.

My Hanucha ritual is coming up Next Tuesday and it should be good. One person pulled out but I have found a replacement for the group..
Other than that I am back at Weston and the MPRC Till the beginning of Jan.

I have some good plans for the holiday season.
Which I cant get into. But it will be fun..

Thats it for now..

bye

I went to the JPL. Jewish public library this week and did some research for the chanucha ritual I am throwing. I did some good research on the festival. I am going to tell everyone invited that they have to bring a stone and candles. They then will have to bury the stone on there own. The stone represents a defiling of the altar. The Temple by the greeks who conquered Israel. The stones also represent the hiding places of the macabees. So rocks and stones are very important to the ritual.
As most of us know chanucha is the festival of lights representing the 8 days of miracles that the macabees had. So we now bless the candles to show us light for 8 days.

I have found my personal matriarch finally. She is the great women miriam. Miriam represents Drums, water, life, midwifery, profecy, prophet, courage, strength, is there any wonder as to why I chose her. oR she chose me. I now feel more connected to my jewish roots than ever before. SOme people would argue that this is not normal judiasm. What is normal altogether? Even though my practice of judiasm is very differnt than most I am closer to my religion than ever before. I can finally practice judiasm the way I want to. It makes sense for me this way because of a great many personal reason.

Like...

Being sick as a kid.
Continuing to have many colds and flues than most people.
Having surgery
and overcoming educational stresses. (I wont go into detail about that)
I need a strong role model and miriam is very strong.


I have not progressed on Summer heat THe new world order. I plan to do alot of writing this weekend and during next week.

I went to weston this past week and they welcomed me back with open arms. I should start this week.

Take care all.

I am finally over that stinking cold or flue that everyone seemed to have these past few weeks. I am back on my feet. I wound up being sick for about a month. Which is a long time in a students life.. As a result I missed a mid term exam, an oral presentation and class notes. final exams are in a few weeks. This cold left me with no time to actually catch up with the rest of the students. So...... I could only do one thing. That was to pull out and de register from the program. All this sickness that I have had reminds me of when I was younger. I used to get sick about three times a month with an ear infection or sore throat and flue.. Etc.. I had the works when I was a kid and for long periods of time... It was not nice.

Anyhow I am back on stable ground finally. Both physically and mentally and financially. Things are looking up.. I am back at weston starting full time next week. So MPRC might lose my hours for awhile. I am going to take some general interest classes at Concordia. Those are going to be Ancient Judiasm and Medival Judiasm. Both highly interesting classes to me. Today I went to the JPL to do some research on Chanucha. As I am going to have a chanucha ritual with my friends. Those of you know who you are.. :) You need to bring a stone and a small candle.

Hmmm I have started writing a fictional novel about the world coming to the end. Where people of nature beliefs have to replenish the earths energies. The earth was schorched and burned in the last war in the year 2265. I will post excerpts of chapters as soon as I have them..

I have been watching American chopper on T.V. what a kool show.
(filler)

As far as cms goes I had my first class since getting sick. I got home and my brain hurt me from all that thinking we did in class. We talked about gender roles and issues. Quite interesting. My main point for my class notes is going to be what constitutes being normal and sane. Why isnt there more tolerance in the world. Why do people have to think they are right all the time weather they are bigoted or not. ETC. Just a littlle taste of what we actually learn in class.

Well thats it for now.

ciao.

Ok This has been a rather dissapointing week. I have been ill for far too long. I am starting my third week of this stupid cold and things have just gone down hill. I am going to be placed on antibiotics finally. I hope to rid my body of this rather annoying infection once and for all. I dont need this cold to dictate my life. I dictate my life. Its time to take charge and show this cold who is boss of my body. Not the cold entity which is floating in my body now. UGh. For the next couple of days until I am on my feet I will be at my mothers house recuperating. I am currently working on five hours of sleep for a three day period. I dont know how I am up at this early hour of the morning but I am. Plus I have enough will power to stop the violent caughing. The only thing I can do right now is get well. I cant worry about all the school I am missing because that will just make me even more sick. I will get all the notes and try to catch up. I at least completed my oral presentation on this used lap top. I knew the subject matter which was should day care and school staff be checked for child abuse and other mentally challenged disorders? There are even more questions which I came up with because Weston was going through this question as well. But How do you relate This question with those that are already hired? Feedback for Ideas would be nice.

Anyhow I am off. The sun is shinning today so have a wonderful day. While I caugh and sneeze.

Boy I write pretty well when I am tired stressed, and so early in the morning. Cheers.